Saturday, June 6, 2009

A scene from a short story I have been working on...

“GROK BIT STOCH DERN,” declared an old man. His voice was strong, his age only apparent in his face and thin skin. The whispers in the large, cavernous cave dissipated slowly as the men took their places on the floor surrounding a large, spread out fire, built so shallow it looked more like a scattered pile of burning logs than a well built fire. As each man squatted or kneeled, they found their own little bit of flame to reflect on, their eyes set, eager for something, their faces revealing no more. Behind the men animal hides, fur up, were strewn all over the floor. A flash of lightning revealed women and children sitting just beyond the reach of the fire’s light, all but the youngest also focused towards the men sitting around the fire.

Charsu sat to the right of the Great Seat, where Mohba would soon be sitting to lead the Tribal Age Ritual. Mohba is known to wait until the din dims down before coming into the circle, as she was doing this night. Charsu frowned as thunder rumbled in the distance. The Test would be difficult if the rains come.

I final hush settled as Mohba began shuffling into the room, hunched over, both hands holding a large staff for support. She was the eldest of the clan and had been in charge of the annual ceremony since it’s inception, thirty years ago, the year the great Matarsu showed them a way to settle, to no longer be nomadic. Since then the tribe has flourished. They are dry and warm every night, no more sleeping in the outside, wherever the herd stops. Even their clothing had improved, everyone having many different outfits as they no longer needed to carry their house with them.

Mohba settled into the Great Seat, sighing with relief as her weight shifted off her old, tired legs. She kept her head down for a few moments, settling her breath. She felt what little strength she had left begin to return as she lifted her head to address the tribe. She began speaking of Matarsu, with the pride of a descendent she told his story. Though the story was only 30 years old, she spoke it with a reverence usually saved for deities. Some have even whispered among themselves that he could have only learned his ideas from a higher being.

Charsu waited patiently. Soon Mohba would be sending him out into the outside by himself to bring back food for the tribe. He was ready. For two years he had learned and refined his skills, learning how to grow and maintain his primary weapon, learning how to hide and ambush small game, learning the methods of Matarsu.

“Charsu,” Mohba said, looking down at him, a glint of amusement in her eyes. “Are you ready for the test?”

“I am,” Charsu replied, reaching for his sharpening rock hanging in the pouch on his side.

“Show us your weapon,” commanded Mohba.

Charsu stood up and stepped into a brighter spot of firelight. He removed the large tanned hide wrap from his right foot. Some of the men gasped as Charsu held his foot up, resting on its heel, revealing a very large pointed toe nail. “His toe nail grows strong,” the men whispered among themselves, nodding with approval. Giggles could be heard from the younger women watching the ceremony.

Mohba slammed her staff once and the clan again grew quiet. “Charsu,” she spoke with authority, “you may prepare yourself in the traditional way, then leave at once.”

Charsu shuffle walked to the mouth of the cave. He kept his right foot forward, 'in the traditional way,' as Mohba had directed. He squatted over his foot, at the same time removing the sharpening stone from it’s pouch. He gave his huge, long toenail a couple of final strokes, making sure the point was sharp enough to penetrate his prey’s skin. Once satisfied that he was ready, Charsu stood, returning the sharpening stone to it’s pouch, and disappeared into the outside.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Roses

An assignment from writing workshop (writing with the 'heart' voice)...

I love the smell of roses! Everytime I see the beautiful flower glimmering in the sunshine I run to it. I run to it as if my life depended on it. I must smell it. I must smell this divine creation, this natural effect of the first cause. I sink my nose into the flower, almost forgetting about the petal, the fragile petals. I inhale, consuming the flower's essence. Ahhh...the smell. All is well with the world...if only I could inhale non stop. I need to breathe, I need to take a break. But I can't stop smelling. Like siren's on a rocky coastline, I am drawn in. I don't need to breathe, I need to inhale. I need to become the symbiotic complement to this scent.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Rear Ended

Joe reached into the glove compartment for his gun.  

He couldn’t believe this guy.  He’d been tailgating Joe since the stand of Pines on Sherwood.  Right up on his ass. Joe tapped on his brakes politely, but this guy would not relent.  Joe remembered the moment , the exact moment the switch went off.  The instantaneous rush of heat to his neck, rising like a red tsunami, consuming his head.  He started wishing death on the guy.  He tried to be polite, but this guy would not get off his ass.  This f#*king guy is testing me, Joe had thought.  Who does he think he is, riding my ass like that. I’m gonna f#*king kill him.  Joe’s rage was starting to take over.  He could feel the last shred of self control fading away, dropping through the density, getting smaller and smaller.  The rage was pushing everything else out of the way.  And now his brand new car is ruined, crumpled from the spoiler to the rear axle.  Holy Crap, Joe thought, now he’s gonna stand there and yell at me?  He’s blaming me for this?   Joe’s face looked ugly, scowled and contorted into a horrifying grimace.  He was no longer in control.  The dark half was in control.  Basic survival functioning the only thing in the pilot’s seat.  

Joe reached into the glove compartment for his gun. 

Sunday, May 10, 2009

My Eyes Are Up Here

Having just gotten a Vasectomy and a resulting nasty infection, I feel that I have been given a small glimpse into the life of a woman and her body.  Once I returned to public view, every time a woman asked me how I was feeling, she looked at my crotch!  And I started to think.  What if that happened to me my whole life?  What if every time a woman spoke with a man, she fought to not look at his crotch?  Waiting until he looked away to steal a glance, only to get caught when he looked back; or the bold ones just talking to his crotch.  How would men feel, you know, if you take the ‘man’ part out of the equation?  (We are different animals, after all.) 

                From the ripe age of about 13, boys, and later, men, have fought a quiet, internal battle.  Those that are gentlemen successfully win this battle; those that are not stop fighting this battle once their innocence fades.  It is a difficult battle.  For the first 10 years of our pubescent lives we just want to see the female body.  A girl and a stiff wind causes strange things to happen; sometimes just a stiff wind.  What’s a boy to do?  I propose that as a society we should start a desensitizing program as part of the middle school curriculum.  Get it out of their system so they can grow up to be nice, eye-contacting-gentlemen.  Understandably, we would be fighting thousands, perhaps millions, of years of evolutionary hard wiring.  But we are now (allegedly) civilized as a society. 

                Do European men fight this battle?  I don’t know.  Do European woman care?  I don’t know that, either.  But I think the female form is less taboo overseas.  The human body is not kept so secretive in their societies.  Of course, they’ve been societies longer than we have.  And our society has its roots in male dominated religious zealotry, where women had no voice.  So let us unite, and get naked together!  

Saturday, April 11, 2009

New Toy

Her excitement overcame her as soon as she woke up! She had the house to herself all morning and couldn't wait to try it. She hoped to use it at least 3 times before her girlfriend got home. Sarah doesn't like it when she uses them too much. She had just bought her newest one yesterday, shamelessly walking to the checkout. The kid behind the counter was kind of gross, with his two day old hair and shoddy heavy metal t-shirt, hanging like it had been there since he last showered. The same guy was there last week when she was buying another one.

"I see you like the ones that buzz," he had quipped, looking at her with a half smile.

'Shut up,' she remembered thinking, 'you don't know me well enough to comment on what I buy!' But she hadn't said anything, she had just smiled a brilliant smile, paid the kid, and left.

She jumped out of bed and ran into the bathroom. She had left it under the mirror last night before she went to sleep. As she grabbed the end of it with her left hand, turning it on and off a couple times to make sure it was working, she started the faucet with her right. Smiling in the mirror, she reached for the paste and spread it on her brand new toy without looking. She turned it on as she raised it to her face, sighing as if a great load lifted from her shoulders at that very moment. She loved the first brush with a brand new toothbrush.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Jehovah's Witness

My wife told me I was sick after I read this to her, but I chuckled anyway.

The Jehovah’s Witnesses just showed up.  One of them is pretty hot and I’d love to help her find…I mean I’d love for her to help me find God but I don’t think that is part of the evangelical process.  Too bad, there might be more Jehovah’s Witnesses running around if they adjusted their recruiting tactics.  I can see the slogan, “Sleep with you?  Yes, because together we can find Jesus.”  The evening news would open with, “Tonight on NBC Nightly News, Jehovah’s Witnesses has become the fastest growing religion in recorded history among males, 18 – 78 years old.”  

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Inspiration

There is no inspiration in a screw.  Perhaps you felt inspired in the heat of the moment, the peak of the mountain, before you came back down the other side.  A momentary vision of bliss, spread before you as far as you can see.  The next moment the questions start.  Was it worth it?  Was it that good?  Did it mean anything?  When will it happen again?  Shrinkage sets in.  You can hear the slide whistle in the background, your own personal soundtrack moving you through the moments.  Indeed, a screw is just a screw, when you don't turn it.  You need tension, you need torque, you neeed to infuse your will upon that screw, make it move, bring the right tools to that screw, winding meaning through the wood.  There is no inspiration in a screw, when statically standing at attention.